Dreams, Goals

Do it now, do it now, do it now!

I walked toward the escalator trailing behind a handful of giggly university-aged girls who were ready to change the world with a sun salutation and yoga pants.

An Asian man in his mid-to-late twenties fell into step beside me. “I’m the only guy,” he whispered. “This is so awkward.”

I looked at him sympathetically as the managers began to roll out yoga mats in a secluded area on the third floor of the mall. I surveyed the group of 10, all interviewing for one position as a full time seasonal educator at lululemon. Suddenly I felt self-conscious as I tugged at my crocheted royal blue sweater, pulling it further down over my dress pants and staring at my 3-inch heels.

“Clearly I didn’t get the memo,” I told my new friend. “I’m the only one not wearing lulu!”

The truth is, I had never owned a piece of clothing from the store. And until that day, I had never even set foot in a lululemon. And even though I spent all 3 months of my seasonal employment feeling like a less-than-graceful Zumba dancer who accidentally stumbled into an advanced yoga class (re: out of place), it appears as though my time with those chakra-loving hippies had a bigger impact on me than I realized.

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“What’s your favourite lulu manifesto?” the Bubbly One asked.

“You do know what a manifesto is, right?” remarked the Forward One.

If by manifesto, the managers were referring to those sayings scribbled on the walls and the bags in the store, then lucky for me, I had just read a few while I was waiting for the group interview to begin. Must be karma!

I wracked my brain to think of one that stood out. And then it came to me. Three simple words, repeated over and over:

“Do it now, do it now, do it now!”

“This is how I want to live my life,” I said confidently, and then gave an explanation peppered with words like “goal setting,” “personal development,” and “balance.” (By that point in the interview I had started picking up on lulu culture). Truthfully, I don’t really remember what I said, but I’m pretty sure I garnered some head nods, deep breathing, and a “namaste” (joking about the last one). Not bad for a gal who didn’t know what an Astro pant was.

Though I can’t say that those are the words I live by, I can say that this manifesto is something I think about on a near daily basis as I seek to understand the importance of self-discipline.

As a creative person, it’s easy to fall into the mindset of, “I’ll create when I’m inspired.” But sometimes I feel inspired when I’m at work, or at church, or riding the bus, or drifting off to sleep. And then, when it comes time to sit down and do the work, I just don’t feel like it.

Between my day job and working at home, my hours are precious. And I don’t want to be wasting time with fleeting pleasures when I could be investing in something that I’m passionate about. I recently read an article called, “Don’t Follow Your Passion, Follow Your Time.”

Anyone can have a passion, but not everyone can be disciplined enough to use their time well. Not everyone can decide, “I’m going to do this now.”

Not after I check my emails.

Not after I go on Facebook.

Not after I make my third cup of coffee.

Not after I browse the desserts on Pinterest.

Not after I get the house in order.

Now.

Cuz as the lulu manifesto says…

The world moves at such a rapid rate that waiting to implement changes will only leave you two steps behind. Do it now, do it now, do it now!

What do you need to do now?

Thailand

The Sun Also Rises

The Sun Also Rises, a book by Ernest Hemingway that I read in my undergrad, and also a piece of scripture from Ecclesiastes 1:5:

The sun also rises, and the sun goes down,
And hastens to the place where it arose.

And of course, the reason I say such things is because today marks one month since my arrival in Bangkok. Wow!

I’ve been thinking about how remarkably true this is over the past few days. One thing that we can always, always count on is the passage of time. The sun will rise and the sun will set. A new day will come.

[Some thoughts after one month]

What was I thinking?

  • I’ve already re-packed some clothes that I brought that are completely unsuitable, ie – anything that’s not loose and light
  • I worked at a shoe store before I came here. A smart cookie would have bought shoes. I did not. And my feet aren’t dainty like most Asians
  • A flat-iron? Are you serious?! Sometimes I wonder why I bother with my hair dryer. Blowing hot air on my face only speeds up the time it takes for my make-up to melt off
  • Make-up. Really?! My beauty supplies have been reduced to chap stick and mascara

I can look forward to the fact that it’s only getting hotter. Every time I comment on the heat I’m reminded by my colleagues that this is winter. “Just wait until April!” they say. “It’s unbearable!”

I wish I brought:

  • Some good books. I did bring books, but mostly biographies and non-fiction stuff. I’d like a nice, easy read for my seaside vacation
  • DVDs. I know what you’re thinking – that I could buy some ripped “just released” movies from a stall on the street dirt cheap,  buuuuut…I just don’t believe in that. It’s tempting though
  • My running shoes. Cuz sooner or later all this yummy food is going to start having some negative effects on me…

From a dream…

asian girls

Last summer I was looking at my friend’s photos from Thailand on Facebook, and I thought to myself, When am I going to go to Thailand? I whispered a prayer that it would be soon.

A few days later I hung out with my dear friend Kathleen between the ceremony and reception at the wedding of some university friends in Toronto. Kathleen told me she was planning to study in Singapore for a semester starting January 2011 and then travel Asia for a few months after. Naturally I got really excited and asked if I could tag along. My hope was to go to Thailand as a journalist visiting different safe homes and red light areas and even interview ECPAT while in Bangkok. Ha! How ironic. Anyway, this is me being Asian as we pose for a picture in the parking lot at the church.

…to reality!

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And this is Kathleen and I posing for a picture in Bangkok at a restaurant in Ari!

After the “reality” set in that I wasn’t going to land that sweet job I thought I deserved, and instead, ended up working at a shoe store, I took an honest look at my finances and scratched Thailand off the list. It was just going to have to wait. But I suppose it really didn’t have to wait at all, did it? In fact, it happened sooner than anticipated.

Kathleen was one of the first people I told when I was offered the job. I also told her that I was pretty sure I was going to turn it down. But then of course, she knocked some sense into me, “Haven’t you wanted to go to Thailand for a really long time?!”

Though I like to consider myself adventurous, when compared to Kathleen I’m actually rather tame. This girl has travelled all over Canada, lived in Yellowknife (NWT), Malawi, most recently White Horse (the Yukon), and now she’s in Singapore (and you can read all about her adventures here)! Kathleen visited me in Bangkok at the beginning of the month and she graciously helped me unclog my sink. And believe me, it was disgusting.

I visited Kathleen during her work term in Yellowknife back in February 2008. Cuz really, why not go to the artic (kinda) in the dead of winter? I couldn’t resist.

Yellowknife

Well, the sun has set here in Bangkok. And tomorrow it will rise again. It’s time to prepare for a new day. I will leave you with Brave Saint Saturn, “The Sun Also Rises.” Props to you if you remember this song!